Thursday, August 31, 2006

Camp at the Eastward

What does pure energy look like? Does it exist? I've been up way too long. Staying up (too) late is fun sometimes on a school night. There's an implicit harmless naughtiness.

On the topic of being decidedly NOT naughty, for some reason I'm thinking about Camp at the Eastward right now. This is the whimsical name for the place they sent us Presbyterians for a week every July. Located in partly-sunny Starks, Maine, Camp at the Eastward was four or five small log cabins, and two larger cabins, where about 25-30 kids from all over the state affiliated with our synod? (Is that the right word?) would, well, congregate.

I looked forward to this all year. In the geologic measurement of time that's particular to the preteen years, a lot could happen in a week: romances blossomed and wilted, Motley Crue songs were played during morning calisthenics; roasts of camp counselors were planned; poorly executed versions of James Taylor songs were butchered by well-meaning girls who had not showered for five days, but who had dutifully applied hair-spray and other accessories with regularity.

This was a church camp, yes; but in the true spirit (as I understand it) of Presbyterianism, the focus was not on Bible-learning per se, but on community; the cultivation of well being and collective social health among the church's youth. We did incorporate God into our days at camp, but couched in other terms: for example, in the form of substituting "Jesus" for "baby" in song lyrics. (I distinctly remember a conversation about how we could spin a Jim Croce song into a kind of hymn, by thinking of the central dyad as a person and God instead of a man and a woman. Wow. Operator, that is not how it feels.)

We drank TEENIs from the "camp store," which was a box of goodies purchased at the IGA in Farmington, the closest blinking light. TEENIs, if you don't recall, are delicious colored sugarwater beverages in small plastic bottles sealed with a tin foil disc. They are also delicious frozen. They cost 5 cents at the camp store.

I went around in men's long underwear for some hours during the week, at night - for some reason being clad, effectively, in a red wool leotard with a butt-flap fastened by an unreliable button was acceptable. We had a dance on the Saturday night before everyone's parents arrived the next morning.

During the week we made baskets, hiked in the woods, and planned our showcase showdown on Friday night - the culmination of the week's events. This was a series of projects, thematically linked, that groups of us would be assigned to. It sometimes involved interpretive dance, but that was ok - it was the go-go 80s, after all.

In our down-time, which usually followed our raucous daily trips to the swimming hole in a neighboring town, we would gather in one cabin or another and play cards, talk about boys (if boys were not, at that moment, present), or engage in the occasional game of Bullshit. We called it B.S. because the camp counselors could not be made aware; when they asked us, we said "B.S." stood for "Bible Study." The counselors, bright-eyed twenty-year-olds, I'm sure were onto this, but turned a blind eye until Bullshit turned into STRIP Bullshit. There were Revelations involved.

An especially cool counselor, first name of Burns, let some of us ride in his car to the swimming hole. We had an old school bus for transporting us back and forth, but it wouldn't hold us all. So we'd race the bus in Burns' car, which had recently been taxed with making the trip from Seattle on its strained axles, blaring Huey Lewis and the News' "Sports" record at top volume. Burns tried to sell us on Day Two on the latest Laurie Anderson release (he was a progressive guy), but we weren't having it - we Wanted a New Drug. (Sometime when I've had a margarita or two, I'll tell you about my Huey Lewis & the News scrapbook. It was arranged alphabetically and included a page dedicated to the sax player, Johnny Colla. The Z page was especially embarrassing: "zeroes they are NOT...")

When Huey Lewis sang out the cities whose Heart of Rock and Roll is still beating, we sang SEATTLE the loudest, as that was Burns' hometown. (Starks was not mentioned.)

On a rainy day, we sat in the mess hall and did the Rain Thing: first everyone snaps their fingers lightly, then louder and louder, move to clapping hands, then reverse the process. With enough people doing it it sounds identical to a rainstorm's coming and going on a tin roof. Ethereal.

There was the night that an unhappy camper got a bit too rambunctious during a game of Capture the Flag and accidentally caught Muffy McNear's eye with a pointed stick he was waving around. While Muffy was rushed to Central Maine Medical, the camper in question hid from us for a period of many hours. This dramatic night's denouement occurred after bonfire when search parties located him hiding in a teepee right in the center of the field. (How did we not look there?)

Muffy's retina was scratched, but she made a full recovery.

I have to tell you about Tiger. His real name was Jim, but everybody called him Tiger.

My friend Michelle, who was nice to me out of context at summer camp but mean to me at school, went out with Tiger Wilkins for the first 2 days of camp, but Tiger and I went out the last 2 days. Way more meaningful. When things didn't work out with Tiger and Michelle, he and I bonded at bonfire over the discovery that we agreed that "Theatre of Pain" was Motley Crue's finest hour. (It wasn't, and I didn't agree. But Tiger had a half-shirt on.)

Tiger was 16 when I was 14. There's a funny picture of us BOTH with half-shirts on, his arm around me as I beam at the camera through my braces. I love Van Halen! Even though it's Hagar! He's 16! We Belong, in a World that Must Be Strong: That's What Dreams Are Made Of!

Tiger smelled exactly like videotapes. Remember when you opened a 3-pack of VHS tapes and dumped out that set of stickers for the top and sides of the box? (I labeled and numbered sequentially my recordings of Friday Night Videos, which I watched over and over again.) The VHS tapes had a sweet smell, vaguely reminiscent of grape bubble gum, but not that treacly; there was an edge underneath. It was totally tantalizing. Even showerless for five days, this is what Tiger smelled like. His letters to me in the year after we left camp smelled like that too. I knew I would save those letters for a long time, or the idea of them, and I tried to find ways to preserve that scent.

Sunday would bring the weighty, inexplicable sadness of pulling away down the dirt road, our parents at the wheel with quizzical expressions, for another year gone. The Starks townies would come back and continue the seasonal job of vandalizing the bunks in the cabins: messages (paradoxically and implicitly expressed) of hope for our return in the coming year.

In Cabin 3, there's a permanent marker inscription indicating my undying love for Tiger Wilkins, sometimes referred to simply as "Tige." It's on the side of the bunk, to the right as it faces the wall of the cabin. There's a "5150" next to it.

Monday, August 28, 2006

Going to Ibiza

Floor -1: loading up new iPod nano with all manner of horrible dance music suitable for the vacuous, blissfully soulless and airy gym, and some respectable enough pop... flanked as usual by two cats: one relaxed, flipping tail; the other big-eyed, staring at the ceiling, as we've got company --

Floor 0: four guys pickin' and grinnin' some stompy bluegrass-tinged pop, talking gear in between some cracking slap-bass.

Floor -1: big-eyed cat now feigning sleep, but ears scan the waves for approaching band members.

Floor 0: beer break and sampling of Paul Brady music.

Floor -1: contemplation of the genius of Lilly Allen, rough, English hip-hop-ska songstress with dirty hair. Get the import of Alright, Still -- Lord knows when it'll be out in the States.

Floor 0: resume stomping, though now snare featuring brushes as it's past 10 pm.

Floor -1: tippy-headed cats accompany downloads of Aqua Teen Hunger Force episodes.

Floor 0: boys play on.

Monday, August 21, 2006

Post 31

Angels in the architecture, spinning in infinity, Amen and Allelujah. If you'll be my bodyguard, I can be your long lost pal. I can call you Betty, and Betty when you call me, you can call me Al. (Thank goodness, there's a site whose goal is to interpret, badly, these lyrics.)

I'm sitting in a musty basement typing this, flanked by two happy cats flicking their tails contentently across the keyboard. Fan is running loudly behind me, doing its best to dry That Corner of the Basement Where It Leaked Because I Forgot to Replace the Downspout. Ten years ago i'd have given anything to be sitting RIGHT HERE, and I still would.

I joined a gym a couple weeks ago, which has been a very, very, very good thing. Every day for an hour, I do nothing but sweat, SWEAT. and listen to terrible techno songs, which is a benefit not just to me, but those who have to be around me for the other 23 hours of the day.

I'm reading a book called First Things First, about how to balance my life better. It is amusing to me that I need a belt to move under me so that I can run on it, and a book to be written so that I can know how to live. But as cynical as i can get, these things are good to do...

Three good friends are going through some tough times right now. I count my blessings every day and wish good things for them. I feel lucky, not always not whiny, but lucky.

Sunday, August 13, 2006

One Fine Day

Kicked around Boston on a beautiful late summer weekend, sunny and 72 degrees. The tomatoes are going nuts, can't keep up; the garden's having a second wind, with new peppers and still the mint, always the mint. Next year I'm going to get crazy with some italian beans and more tomatoes and lettuce. I'm growing a salad.

Whipped up a batch of cupcakes for the band's gig on Tuesday. No vegan frosting this time as it doesn't hold up well in the rugged terrain of the Abbey Lounge; it's straight up shortening and sugar this time. (Sorry, Molly!!)

Went to our friend Mike's baseball game on Saturday morning; saw our pal John there. The Milton Breakers lost 5-2 to Somerville at Trum Field. It was a good game, a step and a half up from the usual duffer-league softball (which is great fun, too). In this league, Mike says, nobody's bringing a beer to the base.

On the way back we walked through Davis and ran into Rebecca, who was hanging out at the Someday Cafe with 'Bastian, the Boston Terrier. It was the last day of the Someday's run in Davis Square -- amid much protest from locals, the Someday's going away, to be replaced by a creperie (!). (Rebecca said they ran out of coffee at 6 p.m. the last night, so they just hung out for a few hours and then closed up.)

But before all that, 'Bastian got loose in Davis Square. His collar made a small click as the latch released, and he was off, hightailing it for the T station. We three ran after him hollering, and Rebecca caught him as he was entering the Somerville Theatre doorway. Oof.

We walked back home and then gathered up steam to do the necessary grocery-run. After a wildly successful trip to the Star Market, which yielded such healthful treats as mung-bean sprouts and zucchini fit for grilling, we geared up for Harvard Square, to catch Charlie Haden at the Regattabar. Before Charlie, there was muter paneer and lamb korma at Tanjore, which was fabulous, and then dry-dense-delicious raspberry cheesecake from the corner cafe by Charlie's.

Oh yeah, and Cambridge Ice Tea sipped during the longish bass solos and drum freakouts. All in all, my version of a perfect day.

14th Street the Garbarge Swirls Like a Cyclone...

What's happened to Ani DiFranco? I've been pondering this question for the last 5 or 6 albums. I understand that an artist has to evolve, and though her lyrics remain clever and engaging, she's totally lost me, musically. I'll take a "Buildings and Bridges" or a "This Bouquet" over a "Half-Assed" or a "Nicotine" any day. I know, boring boring boring, 10 years ago that I was singing right along with Dilate in the car, albeit with nary a hairy leg; what's happened since then is Maceo Parker, a slew of sidekick musicians, and some really dissonant sounds.

What is an artist supposed to do? Lather, rinse and repeat? There's a way to do new things without totally alienating the audience though... In her earlier records, the political punctuated the personal; now it's the other way around.

Friday, August 11, 2006

Milk Carton

I once knew a girl
Nobody knew where she was
That’s what she wanted

Monday, August 07, 2006

Chipping Away

Know any escape artists? I love that term -- it implies the exact mix of awe and resentment that that phrase contains. Escape is an art - I've known many people in my life who have escaped, i.e. shirked responsibility, in a positively artful way: with aplomb, with finesse. I'm sure I have done that too. Wait, no, I actually haven't.

I got lost in the woods in Northern Maine in a lovely no-cell-signal weekend. Well, not really lost per se, but we couldn't find the trail, so that qualifies as "lost," dunnit? I stepped in a lot of moose-droppings and got a decent scratch on my shin, the marks of an excellent backwoods hike, I say. Being lost is a relative term, after all: my mother was lost in the woods overnight as a child with her friend, and has never forgotten the experience; we this weekend were kinda-know-where-the-car-is lost. Not the same thing at all as two frightened little girls huddling under a tree all night listening to the unseen life-forms around them hooting, crying, calling.

This weekend feeling lost felt safe, because I was with both my parents and my husband, the people I'd probably choose to be lost with if I had to be lost, but it was also troubling. I both crave and resent the feeling of disorder in my life: want control, but hate being the One in Charge. There's probably an astrological sign or cereal-box explanation for this personality type. (It's under "M" for "Maniac.")

I suppose I could over-overanalyze (!) this idea of order and chaos (odor and chaos?), but lest this blog become TOTALLY self-indulgent (too late!) I'll feed you the following factoids I learned this weekend:

1. The meaning of the (apparently made-up) word "tetravate": to putter or tinker with something
2. The name for a group of turkeys: a rafter (and not t + herd = "terd," as I had suggested)
3. Several theories as to why my eternally fascinating uncle has wrapped his Direct TV receiver in an agra-shindi rug, then ripped strips of the rug away from the front of the device
4. The distance one can huck an apple on the end of a whittled stick (it's a dollar if you hit the roof of the fishing shack down the hill. I forgot to ask if the prize increases on the rare occasion that the shack might be occupied)
5. That ceiling fan Does Not Work

If you're still with me, the two of you that read this (I should really introduce you two, you have at least me in common), I should probably bring it back to the original theme - that would be my style, and would be orderly, wouldn't it?

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

All this Useful Beauty

Things I wish I knew more about:

Math.
Sharks.
Fractals (well, not really.)
Organic gardening.
Thor.
How cats think.
What people really think of me.

Things I wish I knew less about:

My neighbors.
Hair metal.
The city of Cary, N.C.
The IROC. Not iRoc.

Things I’m glad I know about:

Driving stick.
The satisfaction inherent in making lists.
The importance of quality condiments.

Things I’m glad I know next to nothing about:

Fungi.
Overly hip footwear.
Husks.
Wine. Just can’t get fired up.
Critical darlings of all kinds.